I was going to post about running, but this evening I have NHL on my mind. Tomorrow is my six month PET/CT scan check up. This will detect any growth in the small tumors that are present and will check for any metabolic activity on the cellular level. The metabolic activity shows up in reds, oranges, and yellow coloring, looks kind of like bad weather on a meteorological map. Let's just say I hope for clear weather. The waiting and wondering is the worse part. Here is what's ironic (check out Alanis Morisette), when I need to run the most, I can't. I NEED to run the anxiety out, run the stress out. Run the cancer out.
I'll run until they find a cure, not only for me, but for all those affected. Seriously, I am so very thankful for what I have and my diagnosis. It has given me a new perspective, a different way to enjoy life and my loved ones. While I don't allow myself to falter often, every once in a while I do - it happens - I'm human.
On another note, since my October post, I have run the New York City Marathon, the Caloosahatchee Ultra (50K), the Jacksonville Bank Half Marathon and the Croom Zoom 50K. Over the past six months, I have lost my speed and gained excess weight, ugh...I know what I have to do in order to get it off, but I'm a stress eater and well...you know the story. I have no doubts that within the next six months, I'll be back to where I was a year ago. My running may be slower, but nothing will stop me. Next run that's up is the Bear Bait Ultra (50k) next weekend and at the end of January, the Sky Dive Ultra (http://skydiveultra.com). I'm jumping out of a perfectly fine plane and then running a 50k! What a perfect way to see the beauty of our gorgeous land, first from the sky and then from the run! (If you are interested, check it out, there may be seats left)!
Look, I'm not dying and my diagnosis could certainly be a heck of a lot worse, but I'm living my life and experiencing all I can. I only hope that it doesn't take a scare or a cancer diagnosis for you to do the same. Positivity, Perception, Perseverance. Listen to the song...
Yours in running, health and joy ~ Susie Q
P.S. Apologies for this blog being all over the place tonight, it's how my mind seems to be working. Hope you followed it ~ xoxo